You know what? You’re right. I deserve someone better. I deserve someone who actually cares about me. Who actually wants to be with me. Someone who’s willing to make the effort to be in my life; who’s not going to duck and run the moment something fucked up happens! I deserve someone who’s not going to make me feel like a bad person for wanting more from him, even when it’s plain as day that anything I’m asking for, is a thousand times less than what I deserve! Because I deserve someone who won’t hurt me. Not can’t - won’t. I deserve someone who’ll take into consideration the possibility, however slight it may seem, that I could hurt. Because however stubborn I may come off at times, however unaffected and god forbid, strong I act - because I am, I am stronger than I look - I can still feel pain. I still bleed and I still cry tears when no one is looking. Because at the end of the day, I am still as human as anyone. I deserve someone who’ll be there when I look at him, not somewhere else where I can’t find him. I deserve someone who’s with me even when he’s not. Someone who’s word is as good as any golden promise and worth the risk it takes to trust him. I deserve someone who doesn’t make me feel alone when I tell him I love him. I deserve… I deserve someone who will look at me and not see the years, not see the scars, not see the make up and sure as hell not see the smile that I wear, day after day, because the moment I don’t, the world around me will either not care or pity me - and if there is one thing worse than being invisible, it’s being pitied. I deserve someone who’s not going to be with me because he thinks he’s being kind. I deserve someone who wants to be with me because he loves me. And I deserve someone who’s not afraid of being loved by me in return. I deserve all of this. You’re right. I deserve all this and so much more.
But I want you.”